Time saved me once and then I kept waiting and I keep waiting for it to come again and if there's only one thing that I know it's how to not look back get by just fine alone I can always head for either coast roll down the windows drink the road believe in second chances and take it slow everyone I've called a friend past tense and faded worn out and traded they all leave in the end
Sometimes recovering takes half a day then lips get red the lights go down and all the kiddies come out to play well just a little skin it keeps them coming back for just a little sin it's how you look not how you act a drunken sprawl reclaims these streets most every night to search and destroy a chosen few who thought they might get out alive hey no matter what price it exacts you pay your dues on battered lips and broken themes your little scenes played out in bars well welcome to the grownup world it's time you learned we are the stars of amateur hour a certain inept licentiousness an artless gluttony for squalid nights and heated promises but it brings us crawling back yeah we all want it like that.
If you want I'll stay far away from you hold my tongue or slice it off if that's what you want then I'll stay far away from you ground the things we set aloft and burned them through a wasted premise: "we" drove until it died then passed it on but if it's really all that simple for you to destroy me then it looks to me like you are right where you wanted to be and it looks to me like it's not everything you thought it would be so enjoy it doll you're free enjoy it all if it's all the same then I'll stay far away from you I've apologized for long enough so what'd you expect 'cause I can't feel that sorry for any guy who'd call me a slut and you've learned to play the victim perfectly if everything's my fault you're not to blame for all your simpering diatribes on how I've caused you so much pain.
She came to town last summer and I could see she turned your head not three weeks after we called it off you took up with her instead in March you promised it was over and I took you at your word 'til I caught the tail end of her ass slipping up your stairs and when your light flicked on I knew you had that bitch in your bed my eyes never left your window 'til all that whiskey had fucked with my head I realized nothing you'd been saying was true across the courtyard I kept watch and stopped believing in you you pulled me back into those sheets with a heatwave rolling in already heard about Dallas and the alley from all my so-called friends and on the fourth day of July you had the nerve to bring her out and I walked for hours on the hot sex-starved streets of this town so call out your minions 'cause she'll need their help this night if you want my opinion you lost your last chance with that light.
New town fit in dumb it down and hold it in stare straight ahead and watch your back see it through to the end and I don't know what I'm doing here haven't left this apartment much this year I spend all my days with books trying to disappear and all of those girls who tear me down they seem so nice when I see them around but maybe they're right and just letting me know I don't belong in this town they small talk you to death so awfully impressed with their cleverness well I have nothing nice to say so I keep these thoughts to myself but there must be something wrong with me 'cause everyone else makes it look so damn easy I spent all my nights removed and watching carefully and all of those guys somehow I thought that things might change same stupid mistake I always make and I would leave this town tonight if I could think where to go.
And in the end you took the easy way out so I let it go that seemed the easier route but I don't really feel like making you feel better about it don't worry I've done plenty of practicing these days I say goodbye more than anything and it's days like these that remind you why you learned how to tell such convincing lies you just shrug it all off and say everything's fine and when alaskan boys bear regretful smiles you return them all with the same flat eyes you think you're too old for this shit anymore but you try the other night you tried to explain I couldn't think what it would matter or why it would change things and darlin' you underestimated me every time you put your clothes on I'm so convinced it's over and still you keep comin' around you don't see what you're taking makes rules so we can break them and still you keep coming around but there's nothing I can say if that's just how you are nothing I can do to change your mind get us back to the way we thought things were I threw my hand down and walked away but I bet that you come back around some day.
Not like I could take you to the train so I sat in the kitchen and you got on your way and you've made your point I get it nobody wins and this is how it ends regretting the wasted years we spend it's just another thing to leave behind and I believe in out of sight out of mind so every time we lied I kept my legend by my side guess you weren't as patient as you thought guess I was colder than what you told yourself you saw slate afternoons remind me nobody wins and everyday begins realizing the uselessness of friends won't waste my mind on things that can't remain same latent flaw keeps coursing through my veins go on get gone it doesn't matter and there's nobody left to blame.
Under a sea came up for air opened my eyes and heard release her a heady blur of charcoal white still needle-filled she said release her and I went home that day she'd left by nightfall but letting go was all I had to do don't want for what you cannot have forgive or don't but just release her so I took stock and harbored down wandered for years then just released her 'cause I spat black and blood 'til all the bad in me was gone purged of everything except the truth not helping me just saving you and you knew it I know it happened I've got pictures that prove it you called me crazy and well yeah maybe but I know the truth I spilled black and blood 'til all the best in me was gone.
Eyes cast there's nothing more you need to say so should I meet you in a Milwaukee Ave. back alley or Mary's hallway and yeah I know this has to end 'cause you're just in it for the win I feel it every time I see you walk through the door and all those late night spills ended in morning-after pills that's why I'm glad you don't come around much anymore years pass and still you take everything you want these days it's (cough cough) vs. platitudes still I can't give you up and you might fight back but you know it's true and there's nothing you can say to deny it I'm your favorite piece of ass when you've got something to prove I still take it any time that you want it whether it's the floor of my van or a Dallas hotel room and now that you're over her I guess I've outlived my use.